<!– wp:paragraph –><p>As I a speaking, I am currently waiting on a long-deserved, now-delayed flight. I will see you, future myself, until my sanity returns.</p><!– /wp:paragraph –>
<!– wp:paragraph –><p>Currently waiting at Gate 3 at the LR Clinton National Airport with a person shipping to the same base as me, who happens to be in charge of both of us. It has been enjoyable so far and wishing myself to continue doing the same.</p><!– /wp:paragraph –>
<!– wp:paragraph –><p>Saw and met some good folks that I conversed with my time here at the airport and back at meps.</p><!– /wp:paragraph –>
<!– wp:paragraph –><p>Met with a person named Brandon Tucker who seems to be joining the air force active duty and shipping tomorrow and joined for personal development reasons. This person is 20, married and has a kid.</p><!– /wp:paragraph –>
<!– wp:paragraph –><p>Also met another person named Nikki, a friendly person.</p><!– /wp:paragraph –>
Keeping healthy relationships with people is not the same as seeking fame or validation. It’s a healthy source of seeking fame and is rather healthy validation. You don’t have to be known like Micheal Philips in order to be a great swimmer or Usain Bolt to be a fast runner.
You need to allow your kid to gain independence step by step. You don’t keep them dependent because they are already dependent, if that was the justification, then how would they change?
My tactic for the physicals is to find the perfect person (if not finable, make one up in your head and draw it irl) and then to compare everyone to the standard of perfection, until I find a real-life person.
Throughout your childhood, your body was just getting ready to be a parent. That’s the goal of this all. The goal of life is to be a good parent.
There is no such thing as a mistake, there is such a thing as a turning point and/or changing goals. A mistake is inherently and indirect comparison, so calling something a mistake is a comparison.
Ever since I was young, I’ve always had the desire to harm the vulnerable. I gained pleasure from seeing such things suffer. For example, I wanted to kill baby birds when I saw them.
> Do all the good you can, by all the means you can, in all the ways you can, in all the places you can, at all the times you can, to all the people you can, as long as ever you can. [source]
Everyone is entitled to a safe home, and if that’s called being entitled (in a bad way) then I don’t know what good entitlement is? If no one is entitled to anything, then that must mean they aren’t even entitled to life in general, which is something murderers would say. Don’t make yourself comparable and justifiable to what murderers do.
Whatever you do, just make it a goal to not fall into the trap of nsfw-curiosity addiction
Don’t want my kids to experience hardships even though that’s the only way they can grow. A healthy dose of hardships is okay, just make sure not to kill them.
Are those who don’t suffer only there because of those who suffer? I think so. Think of it like this: Without soldiers, there wouldn’t be safe spaces for those teachers to perform their teaching lessons, etc.
Getting mad at certain things shows you’re a sane human being. For example, getting mad at those who hurt vulnerable things is a sane person’s quality. It’s something we mostly all share.
> The bullies themselves are victims, too, and need help just like the children they bully. “Because bullies are so aggressive, they are viewed by peers to be so difficult to deal with, so they are rejected,” writes DeLisi. Many bullies experience some type of abuse at home, and bullying others is simply a coping mechanism. Counseling can be provided as an avenue for bullies to talk about their feelings. Bullying may be a growing problem, but we can stop it by treating all victims: the bullied and the bullies. [source]
There are many people out there that deserve praise and recognition but don’t get it.
I had to go through it to realize its value, therefore ifa not a wasted experience rather a learned one, so, don’t call it useless.
Keywords:
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and fit, retribution vs self defense, guaranteed rights, you are someones’ dad[2], people can change, they think we’re stupid, stereotypes are bad, stop being narrow-minded and explore the world, explore new style, best first better next, retribution, I’ve been humbled, it’s all fake, stop being narrow-minded about the wrong things, you can do it without help, you can’t do it without cooperation, it all comes down to what are you willing to sacrifice, detachment from objectively bad things, not there yet, life is not in my control, finding heaven, change in family dynamics, coming from the best, Stereotype – Wikipedia, not all crimes should be punished, not all criminals should be kept in prison, not all criminals are bad, enablers, Enabling – Wikipedia, mental games, mind tricks, why many people think they’re above average, Illusory superiority – Wikipedia, learn to feel, learn to get comfortable failing, open to make mistakes, breaking stereotypes, hungry for more, self-fulfilling 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shouldn’t be alive, complex feelings, acting as a human firewall, filtering system, just to show that it’s possible, they need it more than me, bragging about skills, all society is is bragging and showing off, boundaries between showing off/bragging and merely existing, shouldn’t have dressed like that, how does it feel to be scar-less, all you need is motivation, i’m not ready, Enmeshment – Wikipedia, you’re not fat you’re moldable, looking for a strong base, Give me credit – Idioms by The Free Dictionary, not my fault you were raised wrongly, emotionless, Rush it – Idioms by The Free Dictionary, changing families, getting a new family, restroom trained, put off the urge, closely, sacrifices have to be made, once addicted always addicted, missed out on life, we owe it to ourselves, stop waiting for others as it implies that you overly trust and depend on them, financial independence happens step by step not overnight, growing takes allowance, strong foundation, white culture, my goal is to be healthy fit, stop hiding, get the basics right, glimpse of heaven, stop being mad, explore yourself, know your boundaries, desire to hurt cute things, fake it if you don’t belong, there is only so much you can do, survival mechanism, there have to be boundaries, version of me, Cooperate with me – Idioms by The Free Dictionary, the best you can do about mistakes is to pretend like it never happened, no scars, if you’re not ready to have a child who does not live normally you don’t deserve one, unmotivated, i should have been born as a, follow instincts, depersonalize it, dehumanize it, force yourself, everyone has a story, i used to be so prejudiced, it comes naturally when you’re ready so don’t try to, life is communication with nature, put your trust in, pretend like it never happened, unavoidable, preventable disease, a new father, don’t ruin your body, care enough, a new family, bitter making this, don’t want to have to do this, my own little corner of the world, right authorities, lawyers are douches, right authorities, basic human needs deprived, lawyer social boundaries, face of the future, understand the motivation behind it, we are the future… literally, keep grinding everyone else is, get back on track, anyone can make it in america, we are the future generation, stop being attached to poverty, attachment=wanting, narrow-minded focused, adult moves, big boy moves, you are a human robot, personality disorder, school should teach you how to learn, language is communication and communication is everything, get the basics right, back to kindergarten, school should focus more on language and how to learn using it, customize it,
Physicals Section: Fairly Fit Peoples (people that are just starting out on their fitness journey)
Explore what grey’s anatomy is all about – it seems as if all of the successful rich peoples’ kids are into it.
Watch the sunset.
Quora Question from a long time ago – part of freethought notes:
Will there always be something we do now know?
I originally asked this question after thinking much on the topic of creativity, will creativity be infinite, meaning will creativity be alive and well forever, such as until the ends of the universe? In case of any of you are wondering the answer to a similar type of question is over here.
As many of you know, we humans are considered the most smartest race on earth, according to many scientists here in the United States. But I always wondered, are humans limited to what they think? This question astonishes me from certain perspectives, for example when you wonder about this, you often tend to think of what is the point of doing this work I am doing right now, what if I just don’t do it, i’ll just let someone else do it, I will enjoy my live because the average lifespan is 76 years. What is the point of doing this…..
Sorry if I kinda seen vague I will be adding more elements and information soon.
I don’t want to start off in my parents house, I want to become independent then become vulnerable enough to be nurtured by myself. I hope no one will take advantage of the vulnerable in society[2][3].
You must accept that some people are just pure evil and you should stay away from them or else you’ll become like them – Since you are the average of the 5 people whom you spend the most time with.
> Don’t bully anyone; They haven’t reached the best version of themselves yet. Recognizing this fact will help you realize others’ potential and stop exploiting them.
It’s time you start realizing your actions have an effect on your future kids. So, if anything, do it for your kids. They say having a kid is the greatest feeling in the world, so check it out.
Why do drugs feel good if they are meant to be disliked? Because if you like them, it shows that you have been tricked into being satisfied with so little.
Porn should be treated like an ex-girlfriend, it should be replaced (preoccupied) and forgotten
> replacing an ex is the only way to forget
Keywords:
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Why would you even have kids when your own life isn’t settled?
Keywords: writing is my therapy, i’m tired of changing, strong bases, stop being mainstream, you don’t need to be famous to, sociology, Reinforcement – Wikipedia, impossible, Involuntary treatment – Wikipedia, Affective science – Wikipedia, control impulses and delay gratification, Don’t deserve the reward yet, Urban Dictionary: Found Family, start local, control addiction, addiction is losing self-control (the absence of it), self-control choice, can’t control addiction, allow me to develop, stop having a kk. Of being dominated, develop your own style, do it when you have time, cheating poor peoples, perfection is within reach, it is possible, physically possible, Prevent Resist Support, mental health is real, physically handicapped, not a kid anymore, no one can escape, master the look, drug cravings, parenting yourself, Independence is taught by someone else it’s ironic, impossible motivation, tolerate, allow me to make mistakes, my parents raised me wrongly, soul searching,
I hate to see others succeeding not because of pure evil but because they remind me of my failures and what I missed out upon
Mental r* is involuntary thoughts; “stop thinking” is it possible
A child that is not safe at home is not safe anywhere else
If it’s not done today or right now, it’s never going to be done.
Go to the gym at 5. You don’t have a reason not to.
If you don’t like the law then change it; don’t break it in private. Do it proudly.
For me, hitting rock bottom would be better than being tricked and living a half baked middle class life.
It’s not about how you will act when you don’t have much – it’s how you will act if you do have much. The question is – Will you still be humble?
Why are Indians so close together? Why do they lack a sense of privacy?
Frauds make me sick
You must first be comfortable being vulnerable to be strong. Nobody is born buff, we are all born vulnerable babies.
Explore your options
What if you were your parents
Forever a part of your past
Not an nsfw relationship but just memories and why it’s bad
Curious of the unknown vs. fear of the unknown
The goal is to have an elitist demeanor
Is learning from mistakes more practical?
Do what you want to be doing for the rest of you life – as if you died tomorrow.
It can’t wait and my body is right. Why do my surroundings not cooperate with me? Why not my goals? My goals are changing because my surroundings aren’t consistent
Keywords: go down to go up, rock bottom lessons, everyone is not your friend, sentenced to torture, let him learn, do it early, routinely, no one messes you up, deeper memories, etched, don’t try me, exploring growing, it’s a process you must trust, do it now to permanently stop yourself from doing to, make it physically impossible, whatever is Practically possible (not theoretically) will happen, stop relying on feelings, stop waiting till you feel guilty, how to satisfy curiosity for bad contents, don’t test it, it’s not worth it, many ways to die, test dying, close to dying, happy for you, unexpected goodbye, last time I saw you, never meet again, cross paths, never got to say goodbye, believe first, withdrawal, parents let me, doctors parents, Asian parents, reverse bad effect, understand the system, de-stigmatize sensitive problems, progress, manual feelings changing, changing feelings gear, stop taking risks, stop waiting to feel bad be proactive, only way I know how to relieve stress, the system is so unfair to me, as long as it’s not illegal, you have a better chance at life than me, worry about yourself, worse is possible, focus on the goal and don’t let it hang by itself provide it comfort, flawless, involuntary, disturbed, learn from the best, living is learning, constantly learning, program your events, calm down no one is pointing a gun to your head, force feelings, what’s going to stop me, source of learning, every moment spent not mb’ing is a moment won, Characteristics of a fact, opinions are real, how to live life, life’s’ instruction manual, keep up with life, nsfw is equivalent to a drug, personality change after moving out of parents house,
Why punish people when punishment is exactly what made them do so as such anyways?
I hate liking this stuff
Now that school is coming to an end you can finally start your real world successful lifestyle.
Answer the question: what is keeping you alive?
The hard way is the only way. Meaning, yes, everyone goes thru this.
Should I make a list of the things of when I was embarrassed this week?
It was potentially the last time I saw Alexa in a classroom with me ever again and I never knew
Why is nsfw so stigmatized? I can’t come out cleanly without any potential repercussion.
Remember when you face the punishments, you asked for this. Well, no I didn’t, I didn’t ask to face these unnecessary obstacles. I didn’t ask to be born essentially.
I am scared to try new things because something always goes wrong
Either I don’t want to be a human or I don’t want to live in this house which encourages these things.
I’ve had my trust abused so many times I don’t think it’s recoverable. Do I trust first?
Why am I not having the same energy as before,
Sure its boring but it’s even more boring to cause heartbreak
Reason being is that I don’t feel as if I am getting much value out of blogging in my day to day life anymore. I feel as if I’ve overdone it. It’s as if I am unhealhtily addicted to blogging.
The intention was to use blogging as a means of getting better and documenting my thoughts for as long as I live, or even forever.
Eventually tho, it became a coping mechanism – Nothing wrong with using this as a coping mechanism, but it was the only coping mecahnism that I used, which required me to stay at home and deal with non-sense here.
I’ve been writing about how one should live a balanced life, but I, hypocritically have NOT been doing that. I rather have been living a life of getting into trouble, regretting it, and going back to getting into trouble again. All because I do it for the sake of maintaining a website.
> In 1965, when President Johnson signed the landmark Voting Rights Act into law, he proclaimed that, “the right to vote is the basic right, without which all others are meaningless.” [source]
> Without the right to life from birth till natural death, all other rights are meaningless. [source]
I used to be vhetemantly opposed to the death penalty on the grounds of victims rights, until I had something like that happen to me. Then, I decided to silently support it.
Does wrong describe the reason (cause) of the action itself?
> These true stories from Ask Reddit will churn your stomach, because there’s nothing more unfair than a rough childhood. [source]
Good intentions are useless if they are changed in the face of adversity.
Don’t think that the damage is irreversible. Even scars go away after you die.
There are some things that your body just has to express. For example, like pooping – Regardless of the outcome the body has to poop to let it all loose.
"The life of a single human being is worth more than all the property of the richest man on earth." Che was executed 50 years ago today. pic.twitter.com/JZWRci9ALT
“do work for me” isn’t a valid excuse, as it’s like saying live my life for me. It can be a valid excuse, hence why computed programs exist, like autocorrect. Truth it, we are all one another, we are all extending our arms out to one another.
Addiction is not the addict’s fault, it’s whoever enabled them to become one.
You can be both strong and smart; See Here: Thank you to my father, Ronald Stewart McCuiston, for serving in the U.S. Navy from 1957-60. He served aboard the USS Northampton as a lieutenant in the gunnery department. He went on to become a Professor of Mathematics after obtaining his doctorate from the University of Georgia. [source]; Also many other sources from real-life peoples of whom I know of.
Don’t be tricked into thinking that you love the man, you just need money and financial freedom.
Keywords:
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control since you wern’t aware of your own rights), don’t take it personally, why study nsfw is like asking me why be curious (not it’s not, pure curiosity will never go into nsfw curiosity), we owe our lives to soldiers, get better sources, life is unpredictable, not “all-that,” brought alive against own will, people don’t take it seriously, find your base, don’t want to hear anything from him, fake love, constant problems in my life, tired, breaking the addiction cycle is hard to do as most of it is not in your control,
When I see others my age having a good time and not having any scars on their body, it makes me feel jealous as I never had the opportunity to pursue such endeavors.
My dad not tending to me like the equivalent of betrayal.
It’s a clear and cut decision, you just need to promise you don’t want the nsfw and good things will come. Don’t do it because you came this far, do it because it’s the right thing to do.
It’s not that people don’t care about you, it’s just that they have things to care about themselves.
People stop caring not because it’s not important anymore but because it becomes less of a priority, but trust me, people still care if they can.
Blog Post:
He does not know how to parent.
People let bad things happen to you then get mad at you for being mad.
networking is everything because society is only made up of those who network.
Which is what drugs make you feel – as if nothing else matters.
It feels good when you start paying for things. I need to stop training myself to be proud of my family for useless crap like Indian culture does.
I’ve been living in a society where people don’t value high achievers and letting people take the time to heal. I’ve got to change my view of society as it’s how I view myself. I need to get the basics right. I need to stop being so weird.
Admit that you outright hate Indian culture.
“regretful guilty pleasure” are the three words used to describe how I feel when I engage in nsfw contents. I feel regretful as I know I could be doing better with help, guilty because I know it’s not what I want to be doing for the rest of my life, and pleasured by it because it feels good. I don’t know which feeling to keep.
The reason I cannot move on from nsfw is because recovery is stigmatized as we cannot talk about problems that are of nsfw nature.
I needed hope that pleasure still exists. It may not be what truly makes me happy forever, but I know that something out there makes me feel special in some sort of way.
The only time you look at NSFW content is to study it.
I am at a crossroads now – I can either choose to pursue nsfw content and run a risk of getting addicted back into it again (right before I go to basic) or I can choose to pursue healthy pleasures to then convince myself why it’s not worth it.
I still cannot get over the whole getting caught against your will scenario. I thought that nothing in life could ever stop you and your will, but blindsiding someone is the worst possible crime of all time. Along with being held against your own will.
I need to find healthy pleasures in my life soon before I break out into a NSFW addicted monster.
The desire to stop nsfw quickly dies out at the face of competition. I quickly change my desires and look the other direction. I force myself to do so because it feels so good, I know that it does as I’ve tested it.
You have to understand that your father may not necessarily be willing to help you get the iPhone exchanged for a new phone. You must do that yourself.
Mexico is on some crazy crap
I noticed that windows stopped correcting my spelling errors and grammatical errors
I am choosing not to unleash the beast right now because to me, it’s either all or nothing. I will be at a point, one day, where I can pursue my dreams in peace.
You are sticking to your parents because it’s the only relatively safe place you know of at the moment. Once you find financial freedom and a better place to stay you can then
It’s never too late to change and start from the bottom. The key thing to realize is that you have nothing to lose.
People need to realize that there are only a limited amount of resources in this world; So, stop hogging all of the resources.
Parenting yourself
Now that you are out of school, you need to start looking at role models who are out of school as well, you need to stop having a childish mindset (you should have stopped this a long time ago, but hopefully you realize how you’ve been living under a rock).
Buy hanes t shirt the same size as the one I have at home
Figure out why voice typing on this laptop does not detect my voice anymore
Set a wallpaper on your phone that reminds you of something better than pursuing nsfw; Maybe do the same thing on laptop as well. And if need be, start doing the same onto your reddit profile, or wherever you visit frequently.
> More people don’t join because the few that do, give them the freedom to choose other paths, to pursue their dreams, hopefully for the betterment of the country and the people.
In the same way, if you think that nothing if your responsibility (not saying it’s not your fault, just not your responsibility), then you will get nowhere as most of your life will be in someone else’s control.
I can’t move on without the right resources, of which my parents do not want to provide to me; don’t feel bad for your failures, you need to test it first in order to find a program that works; you don’t have to ask, i like to document memories, mistakes my parents made, someone has to work harder, i hate corporate life, teaching bias, forever in my memories/past, stigmatizing shame, we are still learning how to be perfect, moral requirement, nsfw memes, not safe for life, morbid curiosity, i asked for it, stigmatizing nsfw, say it loud and proud, balanced torture, nothing is serious, right to be mad, reasonable anger, human connection is real, it’s all just a distraction, I’ve been there, I never want to speak of this again, densfwize it, anything involuntary is bad, hitting is like r*, private life reflects public life, stop acknowledging that satan is real, stop wanting something, stop wanting to do bad things, stop being tired, everyone has their own problems, allow me to grow professionally, stop stigmatizing recovery, the more you try to erase me the more that i appear, the more you try to remember the more you forget, the more you try to hide something, Streisand effect – Wikipedia, the more you try to control something, don’t have control of my own life, the world is my classroom, brain controls body or body controls brain, mutually connected, being alone is the problem, stress reliever, justice system, can i see you one last time, do what you can, do not hurt us, necessary goal, transitioning into adulthood, never speak of this again, it’s a big world out there, disconnected, things happen, everything is unexpected, give me some real competition, suck it up, missing memories, scars, multiple personality disorder, drugs, have something to care about, law enforcement, not for me, molded, do it for me, learning about yourself, leaving parents nest, good life choices, restart life, nothing special just practice, Drawing the line – Idioms by The Free Dictionary, words that shouldn’t be words, everything we do is self-defense of some goal, prioritizing goals, abortion as self-defense, school treated me like a child and kept me from moving on, everything is situational, some events brings back painful memories, blogging to cope, how do the rich raise their kids, hurting yourself, having your needs met, digestible, nothing is organized, no one appreciates your hard work but you, everything lasts a lifetime, only care based on how it affects me, moral focus, focus on what exists, limits make it boring, I had feeling bad, moral change, lifetime church member, personal achievements, keep it simple, KISS principle – Wikipedia, memory collector, truly think, let them be, I hate benig faced with challenges, why do i want to harm myself, getting comfortable with saying no, it’s the gear, free range, appeal, de-nsfw-ize body parts, Urban Dictionary: Mental Rape, ads aren’t real, my journey is just a bit late nothing much at all, realistic society, we are all a part of society, we are humans and robots, Social realism – Wikipedia, stop choosing to play a victim, silver spooned, Silver spoon – Wikipedia, happy home life = happy life, military depersonalization, find people who make you feel comfortable about yourself, GoodTherapy | Schadenfreude, Designer baby – Wikipedia, stop being proud of mediocre things that everyone is doing on the regular, no one likes me, get used to it, community, explore, touch skin, don’t go back in life, keep it consistent, stop lying, find a safe place to practice your desires, can’t trust myself, stop being clumsy, stop being childish, all my friends are moving on, stop facing the same problem again and again, what if everyones’ personal life was private, don’t tell me how to live, it’s easy if you have nothing to lose, trick your brain, trick your feelings, i don’t want to do this it takes control of me, Acquired taste – Wikipedia, innate taste, keep up with the competition, involuntary life, you like it because you’re human, what does it mean to be a human, starts off somewhere, my life is all a result of an unlucky choice, someone please kill me, I hate going back and forth, no one is going to save you (not even cold turkey blocker), you have to take a break from freehinking, satisfy curiosity, morbid curiosity, not satisfied with my life, badness is real, stigmitizing nsfwuality, everyone should experience bo. Wr., too good to be true, heaven on earth, sudden changes, refusing to accept the problem is even real, waiting too long, some things should be not done until certain ages, stuck, I don’t have enough patience for this, I want it done immediately, too easy,my curiosity of imperfection and being stuck is keeping me stuck, I deliberately knew that nothing was inherently nsfw and I made it as such, Overpraise Definition & Meaning – Merriam-Webster, don’t know how to parent, my parents don’t know how to communicate, explore your options, know your options, build your personality, Human overpopulation – Wikipedia, deep down you know you weren’t built for fighting, deep down you know you’re a monster, stop trying to live my life, stop doing so much for me, finding the root cause, everything is a cause, remember the goal, freedom ain’t free, drugs make me feel normal, weak then strong not vice versa,
It’s so scary that these parents don’t know what they are doing, their lives are so much invested in someone else’s they have nothing else to do; What such freaking losers.
I should have known that I could have switched my iPhone for an Android a long time ago. Now I still have that fire within me; So, now I can block sites against my will.
The best I can do is to keep sane for a while.
Sometimes the most unexpected happens. I just worked out today and I had the nsfw desires.
Who acts as the enabler for your success? Janitors? Lower-class workers?
Cops want there to be criminals in the same way doctors want you to be sick
If I were to do it again, I’d do the same thing, not going to lie.
> The only way is to force yourself
> Everything about your life, about your body, grows! Your cells regenerate; your hair, your nails, everything grows for your entire life. And your soul needs exploration and growth. And the only way you’ll get it is by forcing yourself to be uncomfortable. Forcing yourself to get outside, out of your head. [source]
I want a balanced nsfw life (s* life), not too much or too little. I’ve received too little love.
I agreed to have some of my physicals as imperfect.
I am not saying people should go thru what I have gone thru, but if only people could realize that the world isn’t as perfect or as elitist as some may want it to be.
When doing something, ask yourself if you want to do it forever, if not, then don’t do it.
It’s not that no one cares, it’s just that everyone has their own problems.
I am convinced that it is impossible to change myself where I’m at. And don’t come at me quoting all of this b.s. Because I’ve tried countless times and I am done.
Another crap feature by apple – It won’t even let me block websites against my own will. Probably because it’ll make them lose their revenue.
I keep pursing the nsfw because I want something to feel proud of, something to block.
i keep coming back to you
If you really regret, you should give up all of the rewards (knowledge acquired) of the things you regret. Forgetting it is the best response.
I am just tired of not being cooperated with.
What is stopping you from pursuing nsfw?
I am considering studying nsfw in my free time
This homeless man looks far better than me; These immigrant parents of mine have no clue what they’re talking about when they are bashing the homeless. They are even better than their product, which is me.
I am not ready to give up on the anti-NSFW journey. I am also not ready to give up on my guilty pleasure of nsfw curiosity.
I wanted harder competition so here I have it, no more easy competitions.
I am not getting anywhere sitting at the house and crying
I am looking for guidance
I am tired of the “nothing i can do about it now” attitude. I want my body to want to change. But, I can;t do it without others’ cooperation.
The goal of all of this is to have a realistic view of society
Remember that everyone is doing great
Remember that everyone is doing their own thing
I hate emotionless people.
It’s time to document the people that you like and whom you are attracted to. Start doing part of the physical journey now, it does not have to be perfect, just something to show you that there is hope left in this world.
A bit about my work personality, I can’t work well in a professional environment, i hate corporate culture, i hate professionalism, I hate fake people,
Clear parts of history on this laptop – make sure to use the search feature.
Visit those links and delete the emails of the posted site
If you’re struggling to find motivation, I challenge you to find motivation when you’re struggling, that’s the challenge, now you should be motivated. The secret is that there is always something in everyones’ personal life that can be improved.
For anti-nsfw it gets weird after a certain point if you don’t pursue it. For example, in a corporate setting you don’t tend to human needs and rather act as a robot (Urban Dictionary: corporate robot).
I need some meaningful work, not some job that a robot can replace me by.
Face your fears to see that they are not really that big and shouldn’t be feared.
All fears are an illusion – just disorganized information.
I get pissed when people ask me “why don’t you just leave;” My answer is the risks are greater, leaving me between a rock and a hard place. Also, you don’t know how many times I tried mentally.
If you’re not going to delete the NSFW contents you need to accept the risk.
You are your own adult now, so create your own personality. First, you need to be away from those who trigger bad feelings. Yes, I want them executed, but the best I can do is to leave the proximity of where I am at.
not ready to move on
Understand the limits of your own pain.
Don’t feel bad for drawing boundaries, you need to start solidifying your life and to becoming an independent man
I couldn’t succeed because people are uncooperative and I was drunk (yes, being drunk is far more common than one thinks – it’s not normal to be bullied, that’s an unrealistic view of society) – I was not in my right state of mind.[2]
I need to work on having a realistic view of society. I need to expose myself to the world and their skills. To stop living under a rock. To first do this, I must move out of this house and take care of my personal hygiene, since everything is personal hygiene.
Document Malcolm Battle, David Shu, and that Nissan girl (I know that she is a senior since I saw her at the senior meeting, not the one on the 13th tho)
Volunteer at the first department
Eat foods that are good for the eyes since your sun visor is broken.
If you need to, ask for the login information for the wifi router and block sites there.
Consider watching toy story 4 or cars 3 (buy disc at walmart)
Find the song of the commercial for the grand wagoneer
i can’t wait to block nsfw contents or to indulge myself in them
how to setup firewall to block sites
Consider going to a community college to get a degree that would add credits for bachelor’s degree in neuroscience.
On the android, buy the app of freedom instead to replace cold turkey blocker for mobile devices since it’s a one time purchase.
Add morbid curiosity as a tag on physicals version of website.
^ Now that I found the ripped f. Science teacher, I need to find that ripped f. Black teacher (she was teaching kids and I think it was a stock image, another image as well).
There is another similar picture to the black person at the Arkansas scholarship website – the person’s name is Olivia Moka.
Prosecutors tend to encourage families of middle-class victims to make statements while discouraging families from other backgrounds from doing so. [source]
being tricked into hurting yourself, i don’t know what i should want, complex emotion, feelings make it complicated, unjust punishment, everything you do is forced, Ambivalence – Wikipedia, stable life, what if i told you everything you knew was a lie,
Keywords: understanding retributive justice, understanding victims feelings, go easy on the kid, useless philosophy, coping mechanism, no beginning and no end, someone had to be last, show your scars not your wounds, the best you can do now, deciding what to care about, you program life not vice versa, am i really that bad, nothing is more embarrassing than passing out in front of, all human life is sacred which is why we execute and not torture, Consistent life ethic – Wikipedia, invested so much time in you, don’t invest your time in someone, make a real difference, everyone goes thru this, good intentions, was a loser in high school now i am better, changed since high school, ahead in life, do it alone because most people can’t comprehend, i don’t feel comfortable talking to anyone, feelings aren’t bad they just are, i don’t feel comfortable around you anymore patrick, i don’t feel comfortable in my own body, i laugh too much, remind me of, i don’t care about socializing, you got over it that quick, single by choice not my choice, felt like a slap in the face, initiate change, be a leader, be authoritative to get what you want, accept what you lost, schumacher i don’t like to talk about my failures, silent killer, i’m here if you need me, no one will understand me, struggling with ego, no one wants to understand you, you will thank yourself later, the poor will trust anyone, did my best dear lord, can you be an introvert and an extrovert, role of family in marriage, no plan no control, my god told me, anecdotal, it’s not a big deal to join the military, helping minorities, i am unpredictable to myself, no one makes eye contact with me, i just want to be free, free from judgement, know that you deserve the perfect, devaluing, indians are the worst race, if you had a choice would you want to be born as an indian, i know enough to make this decision, some parents shouldn’t be parents, why is my body so sensitive, certain rights should be earned, know your options, don’t remind me of my failures, tricked into hurting yourself, someone has to lose, does immoral mean stupid, almost is not enough, the society effect, i wish i could do that, physically disabled, potential, why do i laugh so weirdly, I need to move on from a person, i need to move on from a person you love so deeply, thinking style, Cognitive style – Wikipedia, extrovred, what’s your thing, express dump, remove all physical distractions, it’s not racist to love your own race, if i could i would take all of you, if i could i would feel nothing, emotionless, who do i want to be my soldier, you are a part of something bigger than yourself, seriousness, society is not for me, who is attracted to me says a lot about you, support group, time to leave home, i don’t feel comfortable around my friends anymore, take initiative, i like being alone, I don’t like being judged, thinking vs overthinking, entertain me, i know your secrets, normalcy privilege, able bodied privilege, real world marketable skills, i was there once upon a time, the rich need the poor, there would be no rich without the poor, Get the fundementals right and your life will be great, Be understanding of yourself, i hate heroism, I wish the bad things in this world would be permenantly deleted, limits make it fun, the purpose of life is to be productive, something to call mine, the purpose of life is to procreate, it makes me jealous to see others doing better as it reminds me of my failures, it’s hard for me to say i’m jealous, anxiety files, the goal of education, comprehend reasons, always something to work on, The presence of other is good to motivate yourself into artificial motivation, always something there to remind me, reality check, starting my journey to becoming white as a minority, Even big shots need to rest, resting is working, i need a vacation, cleanse me, health comes first, I’ve seen worse – Idioms by The Free Dictionary, i refuse to accept that I am unlucky, what are my friends doing now, access to opportunities, reasoning skills, start now you can still win the race, it was a choice I was not forced, stop shoving it down my throat, I didn’t enjoy high school, deep dark secrets, Social engineering (security) – Wikipedia, why do you want to ruin something so good, not my choice, give up these notes if you want to give up nsfw, this is not my home it’s our home, as long as it’s not my fault I don’t care, why does the urge to sneeze go away,I don’t know how to socialize, I know how to follow the law, do it now, do it before you change your mind, no excuses, awkward, informal environment, you need it, let it all out, i am not getting anywhere, know your rights camp, victims rights over criminals rights, seeing constant reminders of someone, forced to experience, repetitive problems, trade jobs, it’s not a bit deal, it’s a fact that it affects you, the law does not care, you don’t need rest, my friend is too needy, not now doesn’t mean never, complex, difficult to work with, willingness to learn, achievements that i am proud of, secretly want me, i’ll do anything, generational progression, Strauss–Howe generational theory – Wikipedia, there is no goodbye, fair and just, if I wish that all indians should die then I would be wishing that I died – which I don’t want (proof that people only care of how it affects them), i hate the indian race, open racist, the reason you’re still breathing, how to let go of past regrets, i am not mature enough for a relationship,i can’t wait to get new friends, i am an adult now,
If it’s for physicals, then anything can be sacrificed (including the urge to do it now, it can be put off to a later date – if only i had known this before, I wouldn’t have sacrificed my original youtube account) – I know that
Either you can react by saying “oh it’s not my fault and I am being affected by it… oh well; Or, you can say that it sucks and I am going to use and save that very energy to deliver justice myself.” Remember, you deserve it, it’s karma for all of the bad things you’ve done in the past.
Truth is, you being alive isn’t your fault- so you don’t deserve badness sure, but you also don’t deserve happiness.
What am I doing wrongly? Every action you take should be moving towards the goal, yes. But, it’s important to know that you need rests and a vacation – even the runaway slaves know this.
Consider this if your child is exhibiting new or sudden behavior changes: First days & adjusting to new routines can be difficult for everyone – young & old. 💚
i was right this entire time about school being bad for me at this point in my life when I did not have the fundamentals right. Ex. a functional family.
> Also, many graduations nowadays are only for promotional and bragging purposes. For this reason, the event can be a boring activity for some. [source
You need to understand that you need a document that will motivate you to pursue practical endeavors not just theoretical ones – sitting in front of the computer isn’t going to cut it.
document your experiences from going out with friends today.
Today’s experience with my friends left a permanent mark on me.
Pratyut Anand ran 10 minutes per mile 4 years ago – I have to see if I can beat that score.
I also saw the person at my national guard drill at professor bowl today – he looked like a pretty disciplined dude. Apparently people my age have been doing this for a long time.
I also saw Kwame at professor bowl and his buff light skinned thing.
Plus, if you’ve never seen a person trip and fall before, then you are sheltered person.
(Edited) Keywords:
beauty stigma, don’t like being known, give me something to, feel obligated to do, nothing is worth more than your health, no matter where we go you will always be a part of my life, Epistemic privilege – Wikipedia, know what you want first, white people genes, Yes men, never see them again, busy with surviving, how are goals formed, down but not out – Wiktionary, I don’t believe in punishment,
I hate the fact that stuff has to be “done in moderation” – as if we humans know any better or aware of the limits
We shouldn’t make fun of minorities because their goal is to be white or because they couldn’t choose to be born white? Either way, both recognize that being a minority is unfavorful.
how did he get over it so quickly, no sense of shame, my life is a mistake, I am a mistake, i am not healthy, mental gymnastics – Wiktionary, learn to love what you do, love what you do or else you can’t do it forever,
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