Why I stopped being so hard on myself

… but should probably start being hard on myself again.


Main Reason: I hate hating things


It’s hard getting yourself out of poverty.. alone.

When others do not cooperate towards your moral goals it’s hard to get anything done.

This is why you need to target the root cause and know what to change, the cause of the feelings and change it.

However do not be discouraged, there are many things poverty can teach you. But do not confuse this with what is actually learned.

Take poverty as an opportunity to learn.

Is societal expectations a form of man vs. man or man vs society conflict?
What are the expectations of the usage of the death penalty, and what are it’s actual effects? Are the effects solely ideal, in the head? What if a potential murder didn’t care and rather the law motivated him/her to murder?

Why are most serial killers men? Is this an example of the result of toxic masculinity?

Side note, I realize that I am far calmer in organizing my thoughts on paper: Is this because I have artificial energy from talking to people and experiencing peer pressure, resulting in displaced feelings?

Setting Goals – Documented 5/25/2021 / + Attitude Notes


Setting Goals


  1. Make moves regarding the drivers license
    1. Set up the appointment already!
  2. Act Testing
    1. Start using mothers’ account to start the test practice you purchased
  3. Decide on when to use what whilst in the home; Moral Dilemma
    1. Using Headphones – even thought I don’t know if the Dogs’ barks can get through
    2. Is it okay to use websites on iPhone even thought it has no filters?
      1. Tip: Don’t take any risks, have immense self-control because nothing else works.
      2. Should I use repetition or rights? A: Rights; I’ve always used rights, it’s the only stable thing (and yes, I know this came from history)
  4. What to do with my grades, ackwnodlege and plan ahead what is going to happen; Ask questions, identify what is more likely to happen, college processes, etc.
    • Question to ask:
      • Would I need to attend in-person schooling next-year?
      • It does not seem as if I must repeat the grade, since I am assigned English 4
      • It also seems as if I have only failed 3 classes this entire semester according to the Transcript Page Under Grades in Hac20
      • It also says that I have 21 credits cumulatively, also considering the grades from 7th and 8th grade; I have signed up for the scholars curriculum: meaning that I must get 26; but at the bare minimum I only need 22/23 to pass.
      • Ask the replace the “Apprenticeship” class if possible; If not, that can be one of the classes I can fail for next year.
      • Reschedule to find any neuroscience related classes.
  5. Plan out feelings for when you should feel what.
    • For example, take care of that Ethan situation
    • Should I tell him that I am unable for the entire summer? Or should I just not pay attention to any texts?
    • I am worried about being sensitive and staying on track: failing classes, in school senior year, making decisions process, military, and keeping desire to become a scientist.
    • Maybe I should stay with Ethan and study the personally affecting judging words that I use. Either imaging and judging or direct event judging words used.
      • ^ this is why i need a limits on caring to study and learn what what experience
      • I need some artificial energy!
      • I’ll go for 1 day this summer and decide on what to do next based on weather or not he texts me; Remember pushing limits and pursuing the study of neuroscience, have a list of excuses ready say going to camp.
      • I do need the artitifical energy, but I also need to regulate the sources
  6. do not use phone whilst not using white noise
  7. do not make decisions about weather or not I should use headphones without first using them for the better; My practiced bias is showing. -> this isn’t likely due to wearing off phase and needing others for morality.
  8. some other do nots’


Attitude Notes


After speaking with my mother today via verbatim about the status of my grades, I figured that I need to have some self-control and tolerance and set boundaries and understand the situation first before I do anything else (see: reward punishments’ only phase (reaction, immediately, I feel as if there are more phases) , also see: time loops (example: judging as good pressure); See: information must be defined like this via time passage, not reflecting or looking forward for pragmatically identifying or setting pragmatic goals)

Goal: know limits of rights and responsibilities, and keep this laptop.

I must make time to resist and not bend my knees and go down to the earth uncontrollably every time, invest in the future, it’ll get better.

Also add; just because you don’t like the feeling it “gives off[1][2]” doesn’t mean it’s bad. See: level of ones’ attitude. This also proves that judging feelings does exist. This also proves that feelings are everything. This also proves that you must be in touch with history and ask questions. Also see: comfortable with being uncomfortable as a mind-concept, overlapping feelings.

Focusing itself is a goal and sometimes our flashlight (our very eyes) shine in areas that we don’t have words to identify it as.

I am only identifying some words outside of my whole feelings as-is.

Examples of physicals constantly, we just don’t use it as examples, what does this imply about the process phase? Focusing on the phase or the content of the phases variables, known as examples.

Add mind-concept; (see layers): ripping it out of place and replacing it.

We are still going through a phase, it’s all an experience: ask yourself: (setting goals for the future pragmatic always none for setting future goals for studying the past events, coming to peace) “how did you make the decision to come this far” A: I didn’t some one else forced me into this time look, reward punishment phase using semantics and wordplay. and time loops. You must be aware of the thought process behind the (part) physicals, content, examples, of these words, it’s easy to id. this because of the nature of the words used to (think, force etc.)

Inspired from: Should I use repetition or rights? A: Rights; I’ve always used rights, it’s the only stable thing (and yes, I know this came from history)

moral of the story: living “in” [idk what this means ignore it] the past or learn form it, we always use the past for learning from it not matter what. see: paint smear, tires burnout and then slowly fading away.

Some things require something else; That require is a certain type of experience. In the same way of this education quote, no one can take away experience, because experience communicates to you differently, which is basically studying science. Only you can become self-aware of this.

Measure the amount of artificial energy it takes for be to be chasing these goals and what this implies about level of awareness.

Why specifically me? (why aren’t you talking to a rat about this? Why, me? A fellow human being? This is what it means to derive via nature formula; To see the real value) Not even specific, it’s rather dividing me (my lifestyle as a whole; See: judge yourself by lifestyle, aka. as questions about why history) into pieces, I am not me, I am my experience as a whole (see: attitude is background, mentally is physically, tires skid marks “fading away” “scars fading away” “).

me?

How is the word “me” dividing nature and time comprehension? Is it am emphasized word? Like this speed bump is (used as a mind-concept)[4]?

What kind of mental energy does it take (require; meaning to identify past here) for one to identify an object as me, or another person with a name? This has to do with time loops.

[New] Words are invented based on the nature of the complexity of us and our self-awareness.

Hating religion is a clear example of content words and phase still going through.

To know what you’re doing (means to be aware of how you’re doing it, not using examples of phase words to describe it) to be aware

Document the nature of the complexity of the word in or to see how it affects you dogmatically (lack of questioning history) and studying history as a science. Understanding history, you’ll see that it’s really all simple. See: delicate feelings, attend and nurture these.

Limits of learning delicate feelings = phases.’

“I was in graduate school studying the hormones of human attachment as part of my thesis..

Source

Alternative facts and how to identify it’s time loop [means how to id. the word as the word itself (see levels of the definition)] (see recalling from past, multi-tasking invisible lines, level of awareness of the present tense= phase awareness, the past is now [see: puppet lines from past, studying history asking question, dogmatic]) We are hardwired to learn form history, that’s what these feelings mean. [see: role of religion in capitalism] [also see: that’s how the complexity of words are created]

questioning history, etc.

Questioning history is more that just questioning history itself and only history itself it’s actually multiple things at once (see multi-tasking, coming aware of) since we are human you just have to be aware of this in order to put it into words; For example: Questioning why this exists, is an example of questioning history AND WE MAY NOT EVEN REALIZE IT! (see time relations, loop; See: hitting as reward; Not a punishments’, because this word is derived as a feelings word; see recalling word, remembering, not understanding; If the word is purely physical, like punishment’s, then it’s not a learning academic word); It is merely being aware that you are nothing but a rock!

We only use certain words like: “stupid” and “punishment” only because we ‘respect’ people see personally affected; (meaning we treat their desire to live as something special; See: pro-l circlej.), we see them as 3d pillars that we must bottle up feelings (see: maze and water flowing rocks, treating fellow humans as special, rather killing parts of nature) (this rhetoric is an example of a thought process that is to be aware off, also see: level of ones’ attitude, channeling feelings) an react to, stored as content lack of understanding. We must be aware of this, it should not be under the ocean (see: limits of awareness = pushing limits); Also use the mind-concept of the half-sun on the horizon and its’ rays shining through.

“stupid” and “punishment”

Identify how these words are used. should I call these derive out of feelings, or dogmatic words due to the nature of how their definition was derived and exists? See: types of words used on ones’ thought process.

Behavior example of what phase?

Words itself describe ones’ thought process, either take the content to heart or you can classify it as a formula word.

Unicorns exist in my head and my head only and the invisible math lines[5] from science proves to us this.

Examples of this

taking place, placing words on words, level of attitude = level of the definition of the word, see layering on ice cream cone as a mind-concept.

Is scheduling like pursuing morality? Does it need to be upheld by others?

In order to answer this question, look at the definition of the word: “schedule” and classify it as a type of definition = don’t just wave the word around. Does the word describe you or an idea? And are you the idea? If not what kind of relationship do you have with engaging with this outside force? (See: forcefield)

Do I take the definition to heart and be dogmatic? (see: loving people requires ignorantly of history, actively studying it does not) Or should I not be dogmatic and question how this was derived to myself, since the answer is right in front of me, see without curiosity feelings and chasing human limits, see moving to the outside.

You’re actually studying the feeling [it gives off, since it’s not a phase anymore; studying yourself, see never come back since studying is a phase in and of itself], you can tell this because of the type of words that are used -> only judgmental words which are used to pursue morality and set pragmatic goals for the future to be in the middle, not to die or to be completely conscious and push limits.

How to read your feelings as rational?


Footnotes


Road goes straight learning phase then there is speed bumps dividing and emphasizing

[4]
[5] refer title / you don’t see these lines in the air, do you?
this looks an awful lot like the suns’ rays

Definition is an example of what? Yes, definitions of words can be examples of things too, see definitions only come across via respect, therefore not a noun, rather is an adjective.

Why definition means why thought process why history, you are questioning history proving the lines’ existence. No new words, just historical words, no judging the past. This proves that we actually focus on our thought process and not sympathize with deriving such words, rather used them to remember. We remember words, not feelings. If the words can only be used as remembrance then it’s derived via feeling physicals and is dogmatic.

remember words

Doing something to the content

remembering is also a form of a thought process.

feelings

Are feelings like paintballs that are to be splattered or are they like the atoms in the air that don’t wear off (come to peace); In order to understand feelings, you must stop schedule (morality) understand human nature and die or become a snow-flake to reach full consciousness.

Your political views implies a lot about this other behavior implying that it’s all about awareness. I like drawing these conclusions and lines between things I never even knew, there are virtual connections and layers!

more do – more phase = more not learn from history questioning lines.

Indoctrination is an adjective that describe an action phase. Only possible to identify this as a imaging phase or a direct judgement in order for this to make sense. See: how learn words, shaping words. Asking questions about [insert word here].

Indoctrination

Identify how this definition was derived and the types of words it takes to describe it. This should make one aware of the specific feelings via verbatim.

How morality does not make sense with/align with time.

motivation to stick to schedule and to resist distractions proves that this is morality and out of place, rather is tolerance (see floorboard emphasizing dividing dent self-control)

Going through any sort of phase is always an example of a personally affecting dogmatic word in action (see: limits situation come across word). (see phase of life) (see consciousness via verbatim)

Only if you are able to judge this can you think that this is a good thing or (add judgmental noun, adjective here: such as indoctrination)

adjective here: such as indoctrination)

If you don’t understand it – it’s a remembering type of word.

It’s not going to kill you, stop being so sensitive

and the whatever dosen..

is actually a bad thing to say, one must be delicate and sensitive to identify the specifics of the thought process words.

Are you over life? Do you understand life? Language?

senses communicate to us

Whatever you sense, rather how you sense focused upon.

Study: Religious children are less able to distinguish fantasy from reality

Source

A lot of what we do it judgmental words used and not actually understanding, truth is, most of us are religious if we practice morality. Truth is, we, too, are religions. Words are thought processes.

You will make decisions in the same way you were gaslighted from learning phases to do. If you didn’t plan it at birth, then it’s invalid.

Identifying an idea or an adjective (because feelings, like time changes constantly; see: judging the past using the word: “sorry”); For example, why is there another word for hitting which is [hit]ing. These words basically mean the same thing.

Can we identify the real reason; Real reasons can be put into maps, etc.

Religion is an example of how people willingly fully make it harder.

Phase judgmental words

Awareness of past = Awareness of future (Everything is one thing and that is nature, there is no need to use more than one word) and that we are rocks

Do you constantly spend time trying to identify words? Drawing conclusions in nature? Putting thoughts in words, or are our thoughts itself (measured in) words meaning that it’s really our feelings?

constantly spend time trying to identify words?

[*] Once you know the variable of time, and other things (pushing limits) it’s easy to measure the situation.

Drawing conclusion, bag of weakness, not in my control mind-concept.

Don’t make it hard on yourself, just ask questions and be aware, the level of questioning does make it word, be aware of your own behaviors’ stupidity.

Words are supposed to describe the limits of something (what it’s doing that you don’t realize, see awareness phase {and the newly identified word: “realize”) (the limits of ones experience, I was right, in order to sympathize with such words one must experience a certain number of events, see unaware of the past); But most words act as mental limits, keeping you passive. This word can only be came across (understood) if you experience experience, or else it’s just you judging facts imaging events, then judging the content that you imagine (see multi-tasking the very fact that in order to understand it you must judge it proves that you are only your lifestyle and must be aware of it). judging facts word. The words you’re using are limits of the thought process itself. Phase judging words, etc., must interpret the behavior (aka pushing limits) of nature.

Focus on the squeezing lines; It’s like not focusing on pushing limits storing content in feelings, rather focusing on the very alternative facts itself. Storing content in feelings is valid because of the phrase: Separate thoughts from feelings.

^ What does it mean to ask, discuss, describe, all of these are goal-oriented words. I remember me documenting them as such before. Also forms of identifying, pushing limits, sympathizing with situation, oversimplifying, content words. See pragmatics words.

Insert 3D graph bending in the middle and focusing on the actual lines in the middle as focusing upon it.

Doing things only requires empty air feelings.

How alternative facts are used to jokes; For example indirectly calling someone stupid by communicating behavior as “please stop proving my point”

Is a schedule like morals and only used for remembering? Is this why pushing limits is not following a schedule? And that stupidity is rewarded?

The words you use indicate the level of attitude you have, which is basically the phase you’re going through (see: scared of death), as living itself is a form of a phase.

Since virtually is physically: You ruin everything you virtually touch. The very fact that we are passive around others is proof that we are in the middle, we have ben trained to be desensitized that’s what it implies and how it should be interpreted.

Abnormal psychology is the branch of psychology that studies unusual patterns of behavior, emotion and thought, which could possibly be understood as a mental disorder. Although many behaviors could be considered as abnormal, this branch of psychology typically deals with behavior in a clinical context.

Source

Using words such as mental disorder proves that you have the mere priviliage of being able to theoretically able to judge the imaging event, or be able to judge the event you’re experiencing right now.

able to judge the event you’re experiencing right now

Using words like me and you divide the interpretation of the current event

You can never imagine the specifics, this proves the judging facts rhetoric to be true.

We can’t see specifics with bare eyes as we have been trained to practice morals; We don’t look for or notice these things.

Outline of a human body as a part of this world

Outline of a humans body in water. One whilst being dead (as a part of nature) and the other one not being dead rather alive and gasping for air.

If we accepted that we are a part of our surroundings, we would be dead (see dead person floating on river picture below) if you can’t see the text, click here
This is what happens if you’re conscious and are going through a phase
One with nature, no dividing nature. No curiosity lines (see mind-concept), just a part of nature.

Our consciousness is like a wave that takes years to wear off (aka. die).

mentally is physically. how cleaning up our mind is the same thing as [imagine this] cleaning up after a party.

Limits of words as a formula to use; No matter what we always use a formula; See stereotyping thought process. See: phase words; See different opinions.

mechanics like the thing going up and down. ; Make it hurt to value more. Se reward punishment’s phase mixing in and not wearing off.
wave coming to and end.jpg
wave coming to and end 2.jpg

dent in car for purposes of depicting emphasis (like I really mean it, attachment)

lack of thought process awareness (via verbatim) leads to

Scheduling is basically morality it’s done without thinking, basically unaware and insec. [Interpreting behavior = interpreting feelings, not using judgmental words]

Small Distraction proves location of ones’ attitude calculation (sensing in the air calculations)

If it has a size it has a location (on the timescale) and on physical body (see under rat under the mat)

You are like a printer that’s constantly being fed pieces of information, but are not realizing the special value of being alive: Don’t take this for granted like most people do.

Just because it’s fake, what does this mean, mentally?

Identify your fears (aka feelings) and push them to the limits; There are many quotes on feeling forms of fear.

refer title

The only information that you can ever be aware of is how nature works, either not specific to your experience (proving that you are a part of nature and don’t need to be emphasized) present tense, planning to id. the past, planning to id the future pragmatic goals, planning to id. events, planning to id. theories.

If you have to deny it, that itself is proof that I am right. I want to have these kinds of skills in interpreting behavior whilst in such a situation. This means that I actually have more skills to understand the situation without the information virtually “going over my head.[6]

You will see snobbish attitude they are practicing whilst I see past that

[6] circle – your head lines- the information being gained

What are the possible feelings, possible interpreting styles? See: Explore the vast sea of experiences and yes, be immoral.

The very fact that our very experience itself is our thought process is proof that we must be aware the limits of our experience (see: question: how does exp. work?).

The only way you can “move forward” (see how this word is being used, see: time loops, labeling bad) is by looking at the past and learning from it (see: words only used in this way to make sense to prevent me from being sad, any type of emotional).

In order to follow a schedule your surroundings must be not be tempting and if it is energy from the past knowing as training for tolerance and self control.

Judging surroundings is proof of judging feelings as one must judging owns’ lifestyle. See learning phase: the when content and how you live life matters too!

Can hate be a form of love? (see possible interpreting styles and tat feelings are complex and mean something that you mustn’t ignore; I need to find more proof of this and how it’s being ignored on the regular) [*]

Options don’t exist because such ideas must be focused upon

not understanding experiences is like broken strings used to play a guitar, point is

“programming language” – see computer interprets it as 0’s and 1’s, computer stores it in the brain and must be aware of this. (see task manager vs. interpreting gameplay in action)

interpreting gameplay in action

Without this interpreting style there would be nothing else.

[*] What is love? [See format of a noun and the questions to ask based on level of complexity of definition of this word: “love”]; Answer this and give examples, and you can find answers to the words known as cats, say “I love (this is an example of explicitly via verbatim stating it, interpret behavior) cats” -> this is proof of storing content in feelings. See: placing in bag as a mind-concept.

the only way words can be stored is in ones’ attitude, that’s just the nature of words.

Comprehend in 3D not 2D words; But there is no such thing as merely idea words, only adjectives posing as noun , which are rather examples of identifying it whilst under a phase (see I hate you now and love you then, planning to change feelings)

In order to be aware of the formula you must experience it, as experience itself is the formula, they’re called feelings.

The form of seeing the 5 hour energy is actually the very air itself.

information is organized in the mind like it is virtually in the air, mentally is physically, interpreting behavior, wearing off takes a lot more than you’d expect (see understanding history) phases, stored on content (like breadcrumbs), attitude is background no desensitizing it,

understanding history

See: types of communication and graphs

Sanctity of life

refer specifically me another fellow human being, and love as a feelings relationship word

love as feelings

Love is still a vague word

feelings relationship

[*] This is an example of ideal variable manipulation happening to delicate feelings.

We know that only one perspective is accurate but all feelings matter and should not be divided, rather studied as is, not willing to change it as we are a part of nature. The level of words used can be lead to identifying the facts.

Pro Con Gun Control

When you judge something – any event experienced (See when and how and what is interpreted, should tell possibilities of the wording of what based on when and how) – you’re actually judging your own lifestyle (see puzzle on ones’ attitude)

Time loop words example: Judging past events to call it an assault weapon; possible thought processes words, that’s what the words used implies to past experience (don’t judge for future, use it for future pragmatics).

What is the information gaineds’ relationship to time, timeline, lifestyle, etc. What other properties can be added to this something that; Pushing coin mind-concept.

morality is a clear example of judging past and not caring to understand; morality is just a set goal for understanding.

Spoiled is a word that describes a set of behaviors, spoiled is a phase, a phase that is not specific to timeline rather identified via a reaction.

Studying imperfection: Spoiled can only go one way, using the word spoiled describes how a person is being partially affected by it in the situation (see: reacting in the situation looking back at it), I am able to reach this conclusion because I am judging the event imaginatively not being a part of it. Personally affecting and not being able to realize that it’s a phase is proof that we are our limits of experiences.

What are the words that we can use to explicitly identify what we felt back then? It’s definitively not spoiled, rather a form of personally affected and storing content in feelings, aka tolerating. You practice these things and aren’t even aware of it in the moment.

[7]

Using words classifying them in the air is this very limits.

How imagining the judging the abortion situation is the same thing as (use same criteria [known as same logic as this] here)

See only way to come across this feeling is if it was bottled up for a long time, as a part of pragmatically identifying, etc. same feeling different content words used.

You can only use the word spoiled if you judge. See formula for formulating feelings and words = level of attitude.

How to we describe the feeling of that moment? By doing this you are reflecting on the past and coming to peace with it.

[7]

Some words (actually all words) carry an emotional attachment (such as pro-life)

Goal of identifying using feelings such as pro-life. Can only be pro-life if you are subconsciously aware of your own thought process. How is one motivated to set the goal of being pro-life? see: below:

See: emphasized words, using words not feeling, moralistic goals, content words, etc.

Oversimplifying, content, sympathizing = substituting all words.

Measured as “stupid” phase; No, that’s oversimplifying how it affects you, you are being unaware.

Map out the energy on ones’ timeline it takes to identify why. See: only when using judgmental words to judge the past. See: lifestyle time relations.

What kind of timeline mapped out energy is needed in order for one to be for say “I want to be pro-life because in the event that I do go out of line morally, I have the government there to back me up” What kind of set subconsciously set goal is this? it takes energy to set goals.

You must accept their desires as nature (is it possible to take it this way), and plan out the possibilities and prepare for them.

The goal of having abortion debate is only to shame to debater.

Smartness isn’t an opinion it’s a fact about ones; state of mind, it’s about identifying a fact accurately that makes it an opinion.

Actually no all is an opinion if not in learning phase. Because of the when gained on timeline location and the how gained. Opinions are just states of mind, forget the label opinion – grouping ideas in one word, just look at the definition of the word opinion, what pushing limits variable does it identify or is it a purposely limited one like money is.

What specifics differences to what variables?


Freethought Attitude Goals


  1. Identify the types of questions asked and ignored (used as rocks closing in on) in order for one to feel these feelings because your feelings aren’t special rather have been experienced by many others.
    1. Closing is a judgmental experience (or theoretical event) word
  2. Instead of properties of words, focus on properties of feelings.
  3. Map out the many forms of focusing upon [such content]
  4. Declassify the (possible) ways it can be used as, this is what it means to be open-minded as a scientist looking for a formula.
    1. Once you are a scientist, everything else seems easy, even blue-collared jobs; See: studying imperfection
  5. Use iPhone notes
  6. Use iPhone videos
  7. Only one way to self-control
  8. Don’t overestimate your own state of mind; This is proof that we are judging feelings. See respect special.
  9. Find out the behaviors (reflecting and putting pieces bac together after broken) of how people become pro-life.
  10. Jugging adjective like murder oversimplifies the situation.
  11. Declassify time relations and reflect (is a thought process BTW) upon why we need God for morality.
  12. Judging opinions proof it’s all in the very process of judging it that creates the feelings.

Every word deserves a format formula like this (as puzzle pieces)

Atheism isn’t morally bankrupt, we just know now that a dogmatic God isn’t necessary to want to think for anymore.

Planning to identify. Why these two aren’t the same, don’t involve personally affecting pragmatics (see model); See definition, see false equvilicent logic.

Content is logic. See: false eqiviliancy

We the misplaced blades shape in action

Should I document more non-applicable motivational quotes

On the mistakes I’ve made… and how to correct them – Documented 5/19/2021 @ 7:48 A.M.

  1. I’ve gotten too lose with pursuing my foreign policy; The problem was always with me not making my own decisions because others could not make their own decisions.
    • I need some dopamine’s and motivation to get back on track as I have not trained for this.
      • I must make myself not like this by studying my emotions and not using it for entertainment
      • I have trained myself to learn from the most dire of situations, maybe that’s what my body is doing?
      • Reminds me of common sense is subconsciously done.
      • Telling yourself every time that you are deriving via English language, this would make it much more easier.
    • I have deliberately made the choice not to pursue my instincts rather comfortability and a clear example of this would be chasing the desire of “doing that thing” alone.
    • Comfortability manipulation
    • Of course, I’d rather live on my own and not deal with the feelings/emotions of being with other people.
    • I’ve texted Ethan
    • I’ve bothered my mother
    • I’ve bothered my sister
    • I’ve failed to develop a policy for blocking content that I come across deemed as not suitable.
  2. Not being able to use the sound blocker on the iPhone; I should download this sound and upload it to the iPhone for further permeant use.
  3. Listening to music and dancing when I haven’t set a policy on how to react when they come into the room.
  4. I need a vacation, a break from other people and me worrying about having to documented the differences the changes that occur within our lives.
    • Unfortunately, having to use the English language and following some unspoken rules I am unable to communicate this.
  5. I also think, me deliberately not following the rules on some of my own set foreign policy damaged myself.
    • Visiting certain subreddits without checking if they host the banned content
  6. I’ve gotten a cold from eating too many popsicles and or eaten chilis without washing my hands
  7. Got scared with having to look for colleges, having to attend in person classes next year for failing theses classes (don’t worry I have a 19.5 credits, or 21 credits, either one, if I can pass classes next year, I can graduate)
  8. Now that imperfections and drama doesn’t exist, I can’t study it; I want drama!
  9. What are the various things that thinking can be used for?
  10. Destiny awareness, energy it takes to id. this as a phase.
    • time line mind-concept
    • you are here on map mind-concept, or on timeline map.
    • clothespin mind-concept
  11. I had these feelings of un-comfortability because I didn’t have a set schedule yet, rather was just going by on the spot identifications of feelings. Like a bulldozer pushing dirt immediately.
  12. Tired of resisting, not perfect plan to learn,


Attitude Notes


Documented this here so that I won’t have to make new document, as merely having to make a new document “takes time”.


Understand the limits of your feelings, don’t “be” them this was inspired by the libertarian parties’ motto: “We believe that government’s only responsibility, if any, should be protecting people from force and fraud.”

force and fraud

what does it imply if we are able to see them as force and fraud?

Here’s another rhetoric I’ve found: “That not putting murderers to death actually sanctifies the value of human life”

TO DO: Should I make new formulas?

I should use this opportunity to look for more motivational quotes and rhetoric’s

What does this say about ones’ feelings: People will only be friends with you as long as it makes themselves feel good; This means it’s all about the feelings it creates (refer water splashing on rock mind-concept), focusing on alternative variables and the content of the word and the storing content in feelings (hence the rhetoric instilling fear or subconsciously, forms of, being scared of parents).

What do the words focus on? Since they obviously require human sense. Refer to the brains’ role in human body sensing.

Declassify the words and usage of said words: easy and hard, and what does it mean if one is merely even able to use it.

Thoughts, sounds, feelings are results of coral reefs and feelings leftover using alternative facts.

What scale are you using out of the air?

How choosing what you want doesn’t exist and rather takes self-control.

Delicate feelings (facts post). This is why most people fail, they don’t harden their feelings and then soften them when necessary.

Declassify the word condition

Don’t decide on the spot, set aside time to make a plan.

Other note: Maybe create the site ebenezersjournal.wordpress.com?

Don’t sense the wrong information at the wrong time, it’s not fair, but that’s exactly what’s so fun about it.

TO-DO: Document all of my inspirations in one place.

What thought process does the word journal classify? see how labels are used post.

add to mentally is physically: thinking of ideas (alternative facts) and actually experiencing their experiences.

Since we must develop an opinion to live, this proves that being alive itself and using alternative facts itself is an opinion; Alternative facts are adjectives refer time comprehension and sunken boat model.

What does it imply if ones wants this? Not aware of certain lines used as limits, etc.

experience used to identify possibilities

energy it takes to identify that this is all but a mere phase, examples of a phase.

examples of a formula answer

Examples of the formula of alternative variables in action.

What is the problem with saying “I don’t think this thought”

the criteria is our feelings (must stay alive as that’s what it implies) in order to identify the content word, oversimplifying words, used as words, etc.

How do you know what comfortable feels like?

Don’t tempt me, i don’t have the energy to resist, meaning we are controlled by the air.

Refer no such thing as bad reasons. We feel bad in the air. Alternative variables’ connections are stored in the air.

Distance of the idea not just identifying opinions.

Fishing pole mind-concept

Now that we know the pushing limits in present physicals’, What is the limits of thinking of thinking about the past and the present?

Are we discovering new heights by the second?

Feelings are stored in the body controlled by the brain.

Trying to identify the formula (but I already am, it’s called being unaware and doing things) whilst being in it.

Studying neuroscience is just the brain becomming aware of itself, it’s limits.

Interpret your own behavior means to be aware; Do this and you’ll want to become a scientist

These feelings are the exact reason, desire logic, and studying these feelings to become a scientist.

How content words are like screwing and unscrewing a screws, mentally is physically, just done in the air. Like aww man! oversimplifying nature word language and use for words.

Long-Term Goals – Documented 5/14/2021

  1. Drivers License
    • Other people have already written it, you are the only one; now go ahead and write that test already!
  2. College – time is getting seriously close
    • Act testing
      • Planning to test this coming July Completed 5/20/2021 @ evening time
        • Must score well on this because my grades aren’t up to par for a prestigious university.
        • I HAVE NOW BOUGHT THE ONLINE TESTNG KIT AS OF 5/20; START USING IT TO PRACTICE THE ACT, NOW! [located at: my.act.org on mothers’ account dashboard]
        • Update 5/25/2021: I have now received the book; Now I am available to use the book as well.
    • Harvard online courses (and self-control)
    • College admissions, look at this now!
    • College tours – will be doing this during senior year during school time; However, advised to do it on Saturdays, not on school-times.
    • Attend Neuroscience camp
    • Don’t worry, I have 21 credits as of the end of 11th grade, I need 22 to pass and 26 for scholars, if I pass all of the classes by the end of the year (and take out that other class; see 5) i should be fine.
  3. Job (nearly 18 years old)
    • I have been notified that Kumon open – and has been open and working with the people since January 2021 – maybe work here?
  4. Check Schoology for content on the feed for more information regarding summer programs to do for colleges credit.
    • For convenience, I have documented them all here, via this google document.
  5. Ask councelor to change the Youth Bus Apprentenship class to something else; I’ve already emailed her about this on 5/26/2021; Check up on this
    1. I also had something else I had to do documented along with this.

Self-Assigned Responsibility.

Intellectual elite

It’s a necessary evil to keep others dumb


Freethought Notes


Develop zero tolerance

Intellectual honest is an instinct, a comparatively slow phase

comparatively slow

Being able to identify the phase as slow; Have an actual word to identify it as a one-word: “slow”

How to make decisions proves it’s a phase over time (see: mountain leverage)