When I look at marathon for disabled, I feel as if I, as an able-bodied person, have no excuse.
^^The problem is this in written down form: there are a lot of things that are from my past to be used as sources for my future life (not in this house), since I have decided to stay here and necessary evil, I just face these unpredictable, but sure-to-come temptations. I have stayed 14 days and 15 hours without nsfw research the longest since this started, but I can’t keep forcing myself to face this torture and sustain it. I refuse to live a bad life and accept the defeat.
Since I cannot let these things go, there is a little energy on me that says to continue doing the nasties. It’s all or nothing for me; I hope I don’t cause any long term damage.
I say this because I am not going to do all of this work to merely sustain this life with no other goal of changing for the better after that. It’s supposed to be a cycle of changing for the better.
Fundemental Advice: Workarounds Vs Permanent Solutions | Freshservice Knowledge Management : Freshservice
I am not sure if the changing of these feelings are just a normal part of this stage of life or if they rather indicate something graver.
Sometimes we take risks because we’re bored and want to ‘spice up’ our lives.
In most cases this boredom is the result of some imbalance in how we are living.Why do we take risks? – BBC Bitesize
“Normal is an illusion. What is normal for the spider is chaos for the fly.” — Morticia Addams | by WWW | Medium
Introduction: Do We Really Want Government Off Our Backs? – Federal Reserve Bank of Boston (bostonfed.org)
The Creation of Industry Front Groups: The Tobacco Industry and “Get Government Off Our Back” – PMC (nih.gov)
The Time Is Now: Abolish the Department of Education — The James G. Martin Center for Academic Renewal (jamesgmartin.center)
Letter to the Editor: How to teach students how to think — The James G. Martin Center for Academic Renewal (jamesgmartin.center)
A License to Kill: Shoot First Laws, also known as Stand Your Ground | Everytown Research & Policy | Everytown Research & Policy
Shoot First, also known as Stand Your Ground, laws allow people to shoot to kill in public even when they can safely walk away from the danger. These laws threaten public safety by encouraging armed vigilantism. They allow a person to kill another person in a public area even when there are clear and safe ways to retreat from a dangerous situation.Repeal Stand Your Ground Laws | Everytown | Everytown
The Dictatorship That Is School. The top-down structure of school limits… | by Jennifer Osborne | The Startup | Medium
Buy only what is necessary, not what is convenient. What is unnecessary, even if it costs one cent, it is expensive. – philosiblog
Do the Necessary: A Lesson on Habit, Business, and Life from a Friar | by Will Richardson, MBA | The Startup | Medium
What should I do if my friends are losers and I hate them? Is it bad to just ditch them and move on? – Quora
I’m depressed and convinced everyone has a better life than me. How do I stop thinking like this? Why is it so hard to remember that so many people have it worse than I do? – Quora
“I hate my own race. The teachers just always think we’re smart”: Re-conceptualizing the model minority stereotype as a racial epithet. – PsycNET (apa.org)
If the rules are what is keeping you from succeeding, then, in fact, break the rules. It is our moral imperative to break unjust rules
It is also a terrible calumny; cops are not murderers. No officer goes out in the field wishing to shoot anyone, armed or unarmed. And while they’re unlikely to defend it quite as loudly during a time of national angst like this one, people who work in law enforcement know they are legally vested with the authority to detain suspects — an authority that must sometimes be enforced. Regardless of what happened with Mike Brown, in the overwhelming majority of cases it is not the cops, but the people they stop, who can prevent detentions from turning into tragedies.I’m a cop. If you don’t want to get hurt, don’t challenge me. – The Washington Post (archive.ph)
If You’re Overwhelmed, Take a Moment to Pause, Reflect and Look Within | by Esther George | Change Your Mind Change Your Life | Medium
Is It Immoral To Be Rich? Yes. Absolutely. Next Question. — The Everyday (theeverydaymagazine.co.uk)
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everything about the job I work reminds me of something bad, it’s like a mini-trauma trigger
sometimes you have to kill a life to save a life.
One of these days I need to take the time to organize the research that I am conducting.s
organizing feelings can make your life a whole lot better. just having the thought of organizing your feelings makes your day better.
The funny thing is, is that it’s not really a big deal, but it can be if survival needs are not met.
I can’t wish good on others if I don’t have good myself. It’s emotionally impossible.
I need to stop feeling guilty and surprised, I am litearlly getting what I deserve.
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